It was a miracle – we were actually running early for church. We got the kids to their respective Sunday School rooms, then made our way to the sanctuary. For once I had a little pep in my step. It’s nice to be early as opposed to my usual frantic frenzy of rolling in on two wheels at the last possible second.
After a couple of worship songs, the assistant pastor got up in front of the church. “It’s the first Sunday of the month. You guys know what that means?” As he began to explain to the audience, I got a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I knew exactly where he was going with this.
You see, my church does this thing the first Sunday of every month. If you have a birthday that month, you get up in front of the congregation and tell everybody what you want for your birthday. Sometimes people say something silly like a car or a housecleaning service. But it’s often something deeper. People struggling with infertility want a baby. People out of work desperately want a job.
The idea is that we often don’t share with God our obvious wants and desires. Which is kind of ridiculous if you think about it, because God knows everything. Yet we have this innate tendency to say “No, I’m fine,” whenever it comes time to talk about ourselves. But just like the parent who loves talking about the little things going on at school because they just want to spend time with the child, God wants us to share what’s going on with us so that we’ll spend time with him.
When Jesus met the two followers of John who would become his first two disciples, he cut straight to the chase. “What do you want?”
In a sense, he is constantly holding out that question to us. And since he knows the depths of our being, we might as well tell him. And because he’s the King of Kings and all, it’s probably a good idea because he can probably do something about it. He can provide hope. He can provide answers. And in situations where those first two aren’t possible, he can provide comfort.
So tell him what you want.
Oh, you’re probably wondering what my answer was. It’s hard to articulate that deep seated musician’s fear that I carry around with me. The whole “this could end in a moment and I’m not qualified to do anything else” thing. I pretty much pray that one every day.
Since that one is so hard to explain, I said that I wanted my kids to figure out their giftings and their place in life. Which is true – if I can help my kids figure out their callings, I will have fulfilled a big part of mine. And hey, I will take any chance I can get to have people pray for my kids.
What about you? What do you want? Bring it before God – you just might be amazed at his answer!