I turned 40 earlier this year. Leading up to that point, it really didn’t phase me. I’d started having the “man I’m getting old” thoughts at 36 so figured this wouldn’t be that big of a deal. But it was.
My family went camping with friends for my fortieth birthday. As I was laying in the tent drifting off to sleep, a thought hit me. What time is it? I’m almost 40. I looked at the clock on my iPhone. 11:45. I’m going to be 40 in 15 minutes. Any chance of falling asleep went away, and I ended up just laying there for hours just trying to make sense of it all.
That was just the beginning of me trying to make peace with 40. I’ve been thinking about it a great deal this summer, and I still don’t know the answer. I don’t know if there is one. When you’re in a profession like I am where youth is everything, it is really hard to come to grips with not being young anymore.
One thing hit me when laying in the tent that night and continues to resonate. When I think about the number 40 I always go back to the old U2 song based on Psalm 40. Specifically, I think about their live record from the ’80’s, the one where Bono started the song by saying “Sing this with me, this is 40.”
I can’t think of a better way to enter my 40’s than with song.
The words to that Psalm reflect so much about where I am. God has done so much for me in the short amount of time I’ve been on this earth. I just need to “wait patiently for the Lord” and he will “put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.”
Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord.
Sing this with me, this is 40.
Got any thoughts or advice on turning 40? Feel free to share in the comments. Also, I plan on using the occasion of turning 40 as a chance to share a few things I’ve learned. (Look for that in a separate series of posts.)