10 Things I Don’t Want You to Know About Me
Kerry Shook had a great twitter post the other day: “Hide ur ordinariness and u may impress people, reveal ur ordinariness and u will influence people”
One of my goals for this blog is to avoid mistakes I have made in the past. More on that in a coming post, but for now, let it be said that in this brave new world of living our lives online and out loud, we all have a natural tendency to present a puffed up, larger-than-life version of ourselves. For the record, I don’t think it’s intentional. Of course we want to share the best things that happen to us – theose exciting things that make our day and get deemed blog- or twitter-worthy. But if that’s ALL that we’re sharing, we’re not being real with other people. And by not presenting an accurate picture of ourselves, we’re not really giving an accurate picture of God either.
And being real with other people (and hopefully pointing them towards God) is precisely the point of all this social media stuff. Isn’t it?
Think about it. If the goal of our blog posts/tweets/statuses is to tell people how awesome we are, there’s no room left for God. But if we tell people about how normal we are, we are getting out of the way so we can point to what God is doing.
In that spirit, I’m going to counter my 100 things about me with “10 things I don’t want you to know about me”. It’s nothing really scandalous, mind you, but I just want to point out that I’m just a regular dude. And hopefully in some roundabout way that can point out how awesome God is.
Here we go:
- I am socially awkward - I was painfully shy all through school. I have worked on this my entire adult life, but this trait will still shine through if I let my guard down, especially in situations where I’m really tired. This also manifests itself in #2, and #3 for that matter…
- My phone etiquette is a couple steps below terrible – I don’t mind talking on the phone, don’t get me wrong. But a lot of times when people call I am in the middle of something. Which is fine. What is not fine is that I often never call them back.
- I spend too much time on my iPhone – The iPhone is great when you need to kill time while waiting. Not so great when you should be paying attention to your wife and children.
- I drive like an old man - This one drives my wife CRAZY. When I’m driving, I usually drive slow. I get in one lane and stay there. Even if there’s a bus in front of me going slow as molasses. But for some strange reason, I get more speeding tickets than about anyone I know.
- If I hit my thumb with a hammer, “shoot” is usually not the first thing out of my mouth - I’ll be honest. Profanity bothers me. But it is one of those things that sort of creeps into your life if you let it. And next thing you know, something happens and you say something you instantly regret.
- I am more of a talker than a doer – I have a lot of great ideas. I don’t know if they just cancel each other out or if I’m too busy or too disorganized. But more often than I would like to admit, I don’t follow through as much as I would love to.
- A prayer warrior I am not – I have so much respect for people who place a high priority on prayer. I think this is one of the major differences between mature Christians and immature ones. But outside of the “practicing His presence” kinds of prayers, I have not incorporated deliberate, daily prayer into my life nearly as much as I would like to.
- I am an “absent-minded professor” – Have you ever walked into a room, then forgot what you were going in there to do? Happens to me several times daily. Being an introvert, I kind of live in my own world, lost in thought a lot of time. Lost in thought often equals lost keys, lost wallet, and a lost mind!
- I have a low sense of self esteem – This is a little bit out of my realm of expertise, but I am sure that pretty much everybody has a pretty low view of themselves. It just manifests itself in different ways. For me, it comes out as the “impostor” syndrome, where I don’t feel like I belong in many situations and that my cover is going to be blown. Oh, and throw in a dose of good, old-fashioned Southern passive aggressiveness.
- I am a recovering know-it-all – This will probably get its own post later, but let it be known that I identified this issue several years ago and have worked on it. A lot.